you are still father
I am still daughter
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cages apart
*
wildfires
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you cannot come closer
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irreconcilable
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you drowned me in the big picture
as I got entangled in the fraudulent details
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love was a verbalised emptiness
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love was slight force to get in
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love hid everything backstage
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love wove paradise around the cliffs of hell
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love played children’s games through adult bodies
love played adult games with children’s bodies
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I nurtured the jealousy of an abused ghost
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I did not exist anymore
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Only what you’d take from me
what you’d see in me
and what not
what I was good for
shrinking into the abyss
mourning my body, after body, after body
Croque-Melpomene 