I studied men’s faces as a child
waited for the corners
the edges
to tell the truth
the monstrosity
twitching
underneath their skin
in their brains
electrifying the air
that I inhale
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I sat there
watching you touch yourself
and thought
what are you teaching me?
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can I unlearn
e v e r y t h i n g?
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you put into my head
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he moans into her
and despite her revulsion
she thinks you look just like my father
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my sister looks at me
and I’m parentified
I have no shoes to fill
I have dirt on me
her rage grows
because I’m not the mother she expected
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women are harsher judges amongst their own sex
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daughterhaunter
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he wanted me to use him
his words
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and I thought
silver platter
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served myself
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yesyesyesb o d y
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he reacted to the good little girl within
in adoration
thinking how can I put her to good use?
and she showed him that she could put him in his place
if she had to
in self-protection
and he thought
she was supposed to be ever-pleasant
no matter how badly I’d treat her
g e t
r i d
o f
h e r
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careful, he’ll go too far
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the older I got
the more you asked yourself
how do I get back at her?
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he reads books
because it’ll hurt more
when he eventually burns them
Croque-Melpomene 