not enough experience
I have so much e x p e r i e n c e
it would make you choke
*
timelines intersect
timelines coexist
timelines lie on top of each other
scent on scent
tracechaos
*
I cannot trust a gatekeeperworld
*
I’m in my teens
and I’m told
shave it all off
look older and younger at the same time
and I look everywhere
around me
I can’t see old women
do women not grow old?
and I shave and shave and shave
show the flesh that everyone wants to see
before nothing of me matters anymore
and disappears
into the man-built hole for women
coming-of-age
*
shave, girls, polish, girls, smell nice, girls,
moisturise, girls, shower, shower, girls,
brush, pluck, wax, diet, girls, fashion show, fast, girls,
curvy-skinny, girls, extremes, girls, balance, girls,
dye, girls, spend money, girls, not on food, girls,
on products and magazines that blow out your candle, girls,
make-up, girls, hair, girls, skin, girls, clothes, girls, body, girls,
I never saw my hours of self-exploitative work
reflected in my male counterparts.
*
he puts his hands on my body
and screams profit, profit, profit
*
he puts his hand on my neck
and keeps me full-time below the poverty line
*
and tells me “you’re free to go”
*
it’s not a free choice when you depend on it
*
he uses my body
to make his dream come true
*
he underestimates
what his actions
have provoked within me
*
and when he discovered
that the doll he exploited
had a mouth that spoke up against him
he looked for the closest dumpster
to discard her in
*
I will find a new one
*
his dream come true
*
people walk in and out
and buy the lie
it’s so comfortable, isn’t it?
*
you’re doing something good, aren’t you?
*
how can you, with your eyes closed?
*
ethical to whom?
*
I’m always suspicious
when I’m better than you all
is used as an advertisement
*
show me your actions
not your statements
*
they wear white vests
to hide their corrupted dying hearts
Croque-Melpomene 