Misplaced | Homecoming | A Poem

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you left behind

the history of empty rooms.

*

I go back to abandoned homes

and my mind is full of ghosts

*

how long does it take

the senses to lose their memory?

*

all I see is a bag on a bridge

*

all I feel is a man’s body

all alone

*

and all I can do

to be with you

is to go back

on my own

*

life means something else

to every single person

*

I put your clothes on me

I put your clothes on me

I put your clothes on me

*

you took death into your own hands

*

and I learned that

nothing is ever out of the question

*

you

destroyed

yourself

*

I am trying to put you back together

in my body

*

you’re alive in my dreams

but death is never far away

*

a delivery arrived for you

long after your funeral

*

all I see is ghosts

in that country

*

home became a graveyard

without bodies

*

laughter can be as close to death

as anything else

*

Pont Adolphe, Pont Adolphe,

you let him go, you let him go

*

falling out of the sky

*

nobody had seen

the resignation in your face

who walked amongst you

who walked next to you

who walked past you

as you were on your way

*

nothing could pull you back into life

*

you had already shut down

step

by

step

by

step

*

she knew when she saw them

with your bag

*

our mother looks at me

and all I can see

is your death all over her face

*

I can’t breathe

*

you befriended your end

(in a matter of seconds?)

*

a man of actions and words

what if you had chosen words that day

*

I wouldn’t be wearing your socks out

I wouldn’t have emptied your room

I would still receive voicemails

I would

I wouldn’t

I would

that’s never ever the point

*

this is what you wanted

and that’s what pushes me to the edge

to understand

*

for you

it was a decision like any other

a choice

free will

free fall

and I stand by you

despite the fact that

standing on that bridge

makes me want to scream my heart out

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