I think about you all the time
Even if I don’t think at all,
You’re there and your absence
Weighs down my bones and I can
Sense how easy it might be to let
Myself drown amidst the silence
Of the wound that you inflicted, unwanted,
Unimagined, carried out, the sentence,
On my shoulders, my life without you,
My body is bleeding outside in, inside out,
Your name, in my veins, the air I hold on to.
I wish you were here, I wish you were here,
The sickness of the body that longs and aches,
Holds you back, drags you into your past, life, passed,
Where I still exist and try to breathe thinking of you,
Your scent on my shoulders, your beard oil on my
Eyebrows, shaped, destroyed, rebuilt, I ache,
When I say your name in a prayer that is none,
Words without sound, images hanging from the night sky,
Falling right into my heart that beats like a broken drum,
A restless motor, loving you, loving you,
Curing this heartbreak with nothing but love.
Croque-Melpomene 