You entered my body through my stomach,
The sound of your voice, bursting, rummaging,
I tried to shoot it out of my ears, but there you
Lingered on the wrong side of the eardrum,
Banging, accepting the bad things into my ear,
The lies, the factory of heartbreak, the deconstructive
Criticisms, the regurgitating saboteurs, you selected
What was allowed to make its way in and I lost control,
I didn’t know that what I had to fight was wearing a mask.
You caused disruption within myself.
Every reaction forecast, out of character, mine.
You drenched my body to replicate you
And beat yourself up, out of body, out of yours,
Away with yours, through mine, this vision of yours,
Sick, your self-exorcisms, ejections, rejections, projected
On my skin to tear apart, to judge and condemn.
You blinded me and I did not see who I was anymore.
You needed me to be a blank page so you could bleed
On it. I observed everything that came out of your mouth wide
Open and I learned my lessons by heart, knew that you
Would never stop until you gained the last piece of me,
I learned to open my mouth too and instead of taking
You in, absorbing you, I chose to bare my teeth and bite
Until you would stop coming close to me.