wesentlich | a poem

at some point I gave up

I put myself to rest

I embodied what you expected of me

and lied to myself

until lies became acts

and I shrank within myself

disappeared

reappeared as your desires

and still you were not satisfied

I was not whole

I was torn inside

but you are drawn to broken toys

slithering in

attaching strings

pulling tightly

reassembling me in the wrong places

close to you

close to devastation

and I stare at myself in the mirror

passing by

fleetingly

and the mausoleum opens up

disappointment erupts in my forlorn voice

and I feel the strings around my posture

around my body parts

for the first time

and that I am not really moving

and that I am not alone

because I am performing

My own drawing © Laura Gentile 2021 | Instagram: @melpomenepaintings

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