how challenging is it for you to be good?
is it a challenge at all?
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you judge from your high horse
but never get off
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there are no obstacles within you
no tormentors, no hurdles, spikes and artillery
no natural instinct to overcome
no thirst to quench, no self-destruction for the greater good
do you have any idea what it feels like
to live by the light of stars
whilst being blinded by merciless darkness
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and you idealise your effortlessness to be good
how it is your sheer nature
how easy it is for you
how easy it must be for everyone else
how quickly they fail your sense of righteousness
I respect the one who wades through hell to be good
not the one who is always good due to an inherent lack of temptation
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and you forgive and forgive yourself for action after action
and he refused to forgive himself for mere thoughts
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there is a man decaying in his bed
who won’t get the curve
who revisits the same day over and over again
without ever acknowledging the truth
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and he tried to fade himself out of me
drain me of his colours
no part of me shall be yours
he made me so that he could take away
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and the things that were never mentioned
made an empty house more intimidating
Croque-Melpomene 