everything was done by the book except one page
and it was thrown into the fire
*
another book consisted of ripped-out pages
from other books
a bestseller
a never-ending series
*
you counted on acts of continuous self-betrayal
*
I said yes to you
and no to myself
*
I was choking on the normality
that you projected into the world
and that every fool believed in
*
people want to be told the truth
as long as they don’t have to deal with it
*
people want to know everything
as long as it doesn’t disrupt their comfort
*
you put in coin after coin after coin
to insert yourself watching death happen to someone else
not you
*
you sensationalise your vanity
and bore me to death
*
I need to hear one sentence from your mouth
to know whether you have the depth of a puddle of spit
*
but you pray, you pretty thing, you are perfect, you little thing,
you are desirable, feed me, feed me, sustain me, praise me,
l o o k
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Croque-Melpomene 