you will be my one-trick pony
you’ll do it for me
that’ll do
stay the same
don’t move
I’ve got my eyes on you
their voices infest the back of my head
*
you needed me on my fours
so that you could stand
and holler
look at me
*
I reflected your secret behaviour in public
because I thought it was normal
and I understood that
I was a child that had to be hidden away in the house
*
one trick
one trick
you’ll do that
you’ll do it for me
*
you mould and break me at the same time
*
I sit on your lap and
am taught that you’re a man
*
a g e l e s s
*
we’re all children inside
*
and you used that as a weapon
*
drinking yourself into self-oblivion
putting on a clean vest, virtuewall,
drowning what comes up for air
again and again and again
you can’t help it
you want me there
and I become a part of your destruction
*
your face, hunger, it won’t do
I eat and eat you away
but you’re still there
gaping
*
I had stopped using words
nobody wanted to hear them
I had stopped using my body
it became invisible to everyone
but you
the trench got deeper
I got smaller
your hands a cage above my head
livestock
*
do
you
think
that
he
did
something
to
her
?
Croque-Melpomene 