you ate popcorn in my house of grief
*
grief should end like a movie
and you were suspicious
impatient
move on now, live your life now
*
does it really need to happen to you too
before you can even remotely begin to understand?
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you find relief in other people’s woes
*
I’ve made you better than you ever were
in my head
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I’ve given you compliments
making myself smaller by implication
and you took everything in
soaking, feasting
*
I should have known that you don’t feel
that you fake what you see
copy what you can use
*
girls can kill too
indirectly
one fire after another
entourage
subtle, effortless, undetectable, deceitful
*
you see the smile, the embrace
I feel the blade across my skin
the fire in my stomach
the unsuspected nightmare
*
but I thought she was your best friend
*
you perform what people want to see
*
I’d always lose to
someone who doesn’t have a conscience
*
you isolate to establish your relationships
*
and suddenly there was no one to turn to
and nobody believed it
*
strategic, provocative, lethal
*
she attacks the invisible
and everything must be alright
everything must be exaggerated
can you see a broken heart
can you see a broken spirit
f a n c i f u l
Croque-Melpomene 