I am not blaming you for the world that I live in
I am blaming you
for the part you played
in mine
when you shrank it
and when you took complete control
without responsibility
when I depended on you
when I was too young
to not cling to you
to escape
to see through you
and understand that I am safe(r) on my own
*
oh
you
spat
fire
and
I
swallowed
it
all
*
every time
that I tried
to get close to you
I looked at your face
and felt
an abyss
between us
*
and you’d let me fall
*
I’d never come closer
*
silence
floating above the abyss
no warnings
no cautionary tale
if you come closer you’ll die
*
but you didn’t keep your hands to yourself
you were an adult
the abyss was a puddle to you
Croque-Melpomene 