I could drown, drown, drown
In the image of your fall
That doesn’t let go, that hammers
Its bites and teeth and nails
Straight through my bones
Right into the muscle mass of my heart
But I won’t bite, I won’t swallow
Not as long as it contains a poison
That I cannot digest, don’t know how to.
The reduction of a human body
A body I watched grow up
A body I loved
A body that made me laugh
Don’t tell me I say too much, talk too much,
What would you be feeling?
Don’t tell me years go by,
Every single day I deal
With his fall
With a broken body
With love thrown over the edge
Love thrown out every single day
In this world
Love dissected, gutted,
Time is ticking and you couldn’t care less
I saw him fall a thousand fucking times
And it still feels like fucking hellfire
I exorcise myself every single day
And you will be silent
You will let me rage
You will not infect me with your saltless loveless sentences
Bored, so bored and detached.
-With my entire force I would have kept your body
With your feet on the ground, that’s what I feel like today
And I would have succeeded
Or I would have failed
That’s the point, that’s the question, the riddle and the answer-.
Croque-Melpomene 