Everything You Are Is Still Here: A Poem

The sun is shining. I’m sure you feel the heat too.

I didn’t sleep well. I wish you were still alive.

You’re in every room that I walk into.

Did you think it would be this way?

What went on in your head?


Your life belonged to you.

Not for us to keep, determine its outlines.

I still have your books beside me.

I can’t read them yet.

A month ago. I still heard your voice in June.


I’m moving on with you by my side.

I won’t let my brother disintegrate in the past.

In my body, in my mind, in my memory.

There you shall live pain-free, safely, amongst light and love.

There I’ll hold you, as closely as we need.


You weren’t born to disappear.

Your time hasn’t run out within me.

I wash my face with your products.

I have your soap bars in my closet.

My face smells like yours, smells like mine.

One moment amongst the many.

I’ve felt how life had deserted your body.

I will never forget how my hands felt on your forehead.

How my lips felt on your forehead.

How I carried the smell that wasn’t yours around me for days

And brought you back to life in my own head.

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