I’m wearing your socks, your jumper,
Your trousers, your ring, the bag you
Left behind so carefully on the bridge,
And I feel as if I’m approaching a rabbit
Hole, heart first, and something starts to
Tell me that I have to shed you in order to
Come out whole again, all I wanted was to
Be close to you, feel you on my skin, but you
Let go and I have to let go, and we’ll coexist
In different spheres and we know our names.
I was heartbroken and frightened, ready to
Fight, ready to disintegrate, the cards have been
Reshuffled, I walked into a thousand questions
And thought of a thousand answers and possibilities,
But your voice seems to be missing, my stomach
Senses the truth, I wish I could have held you,
Looked into your blue eyes, I know that you heard
Me, but you let go of your body already, that’s all I had,
Everything and nothing, the horror, the love, life in my own hands.
Croque-Melpomene 