Something in me had given up.

And you stumbled through my fingertips.

Lost all heat.

And I stutter.

Can’t find you anymore.

On my dry tongue.

You’re missing and nothing moves onward.

I dream of you when I’m awake.

Burying myself beneath my own silent skin.

I look at them, at the past, how everything dissolved.

Disappeared beneath me.

I had already drowned.

Nobody had ever known me.

How could they?

With all their blind fingers pointed straight at me?

There is so much poison in my body that it grew comfortable.

And I will observe the decay of all matter.

And I will be called heartless.

But all I am is lost.

So lost the reasons for

My feelings,

My subjectivity,

Have deserted me.

Leo_Gestel_Young_woman_with_a_hat

“A young woman with a hat” by Leo Gestel (1881-1941)

 

 

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: