She whispered that she had no use for modern cemeteries.
What she feared the most was stagnancy and her own unimportance.
She made sure that everybody saw her, heard her when she crossed rooms.
She felt that in every bed, on every street she bathed in insignificance.
Her body twisted her actions into extremes, she never learned how to live.
And she sang silent songs to herself to not collapse in a rustling crowd.
They would all caress her skin for mere seconds and she would still freeze.
A kiss meant something far away, something concluded, assured, relentless.
They evoked a desire only to extinguish it quickly, to rid themselves of her.
She was forgotten the moment the key was turned and she never felt complete.
Maybe, she thought, she was desperate for her father’s love in her rotten sheets.
Maybe, she longed to be held in her mother’s unresponsive arms.
“Portrait of a woman facing right holding a fan” by Frans Hals (1582/3-1666)
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My name is Laura Gentile. I’m of German-Italian descent and I speak five languages such as English, German, French, Italian, Luxembourgish and I’m currently learning Romanian.
I hold a Master of Arts Degree in English Literature, Film and Visual Culture (Dissertation: The Decadent in Love with his Psychopomp: Thomas Mann's 'Death in Venice' and Adrian Lyne's 'Lolita') and a Master of Letters by Research in English Literature, Film and Visual Culture (Thesis: Romanticising Decadence and Aestheticising Death: Women as Projection Bodies and Mimetic Identities in Zola’s 'Thérèse Raquin', Schnitzler’s 'Dream Story', Süskind’s 'Perfume: The Story of a Murderer' and Eugenides’ 'The Virgin Suicides').
My debut novel, 'Within Paravent Walls', will be published by WiDo Publishing / E. L. Marker.
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