I can’t imagine who taught you how to love and hold.
The room you grew up in must have been empty, your
Cries never heard and you infect your mannerisms with
Lack and unseen violence. You acknowledge her body, the tender
Absorbing skin, your perpetrating tongue graveling its path. She
Only finds lovely repercussions because you temporarily shoved your dilemmas aside.
But you’ll always listen to your voices. At times your age surfaces, but you subdue it.
The abandoned room catches up with you, takes you back every time and she enters
A space parallel to it and goes there to be loved. To feel your scent eating her up entirely.
She never realises how you end up a blemish on her skin, a texture of malice and denial.
She can’t detect the poverty of your intentions, that you cannot stand yourself, that you
Have no mirrors, yet keep revitalising the image they all believe in and that always dies
In that horrid room because you deprive yourself of oxygen.
“A cantora de ópera Lina Cavalieri” by Giovanni Boldini (1842-1931)
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My name is Laura Gentile. I’m of German-Italian descent and I speak five languages such as English, German, French, Italian, Luxembourgish and I’m currently learning Romanian.
I hold a Master of Arts Degree in English Literature, Film and Visual Culture (Dissertation: The Decadent in Love with his Psychopomp: Thomas Mann's 'Death in Venice' and Adrian Lyne's 'Lolita') and a Master of Letters by Research in English Literature, Film and Visual Culture (Thesis: Romanticising Decadence and Aestheticising Death: Women as Projection Bodies and Mimetic Identities in Zola’s 'Thérèse Raquin', Schnitzler’s 'Dream Story', Süskind’s 'Perfume: The Story of a Murderer' and Eugenides’ 'The Virgin Suicides').
My debut novel, 'Within Paravent Walls', will be published by WiDo Publishing / E. L. Marker.
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