I travel back to your faces, into their rich pastridden texture.
I hear their opening voices, their gulps and echo-lands.
And I wander across the past and the present, the old songs.
It’s a sensation destabilising itself between nostalgia and shame.
It’s my old vanished faces, former glory and deeply rooted unhappinesses.
I had lost myself in endless pretence and yearning shadows and inadequacy.
These faces block me, shake me, from afar, from deep within and I return
To hollow places that feel too dark to reawaken.
I hear our voices, the fading screams and hopelessness, the nonsensical violence
In our arms, that nobody believed in and everbody listened to.
You look at a photograph and reminisce, but I look at it and see it within a context
And I ache, as I understand myself and look at myself retrospectively.
I detect the silent declarations of my own misery, of my own prisons,
My fears and passivities. I see myself clearly and the words that were never uttered,
The wars that have never been cured by love.
“Morning Toilette” by Christoffer Wilhelm Eckersberg (1783-1853)
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My name is Laura Gentile. I’m of German-Italian descent and I speak five languages such as English, German, French, Italian, Luxembourgish and I’m currently learning Romanian.
I hold a Master of Arts Degree in English Literature, Film and Visual Culture (Dissertation: The Decadent in Love with his Psychopomp: Thomas Mann's 'Death in Venice' and Adrian Lyne's 'Lolita') and a Master of Letters by Research in English Literature, Film and Visual Culture (Thesis: Romanticising Decadence and Aestheticising Death: Women as Projection Bodies and Mimetic Identities in Zola’s 'Thérèse Raquin', Schnitzler’s 'Dream Story', Süskind’s 'Perfume: The Story of a Murderer' and Eugenides’ 'The Virgin Suicides').
My poetry and short stories have been published in two anthologies entitled 'Shaking Thoughts' and 'Until Forever Becomes The End', both edited by Joan Barbara Simon PhD PhD, leading to a prose and poetry recital called 'Silence Breakers' at the Libreria Altrimenti in Luxembourg.
My article on 'Biblical Imagery and Apocalyptic Visions in Films' written for the university course 'Film And Popular Culture' was published in a Luxembourgish film magazine named 'Graffiti'.
My work was chosen as obligatory reading for the academic course 'Creative Writing' at the University of Luxembourg and was the focus of the students’ exam portfolio. I was invited by the University of Luxembourg to do a workshop on my short story 'Prophets of the Streetlight' for the 'Creative Writing' course, including a reading and a Q&A.
In 2013, I published my own collection of short stories and poetry entitled 'Seraphic Addiction', which led to an invitation by Ara City Radio to do an interview and a reading on air.
Consequently I was encouraged to create my own radio show called 'Chasse-Sirène' surrounding literature, films, music and art.
Furthermore, I am the official German translator of Joan Barbara Simon’s 'Verses Nature' trilogy.
My debut novel, 'Within Paravent Walls', will be published by WiDo Publishing / E. L. Marker.
I am the creator of "Croque-Melpomene: Femalecentric Poetry" and I have a YouTube channel carrying the same name.
I am a weekly blogger for RTL Today, a major European media platform.
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