Hypnos | a poem

I have become

I have collected

I have severed

I have rejected

keepsakes

goodbyes

by force

or

on my own terms

unwanted

I have died and accelerated disintegration

here and there

left my selves behind

everywhere

on my knees

forehead to the ground

remembrance

for the sake of rebirth

I have lived as myself

over and turned over

enveloped

developed

turned out

crumbled

spread out

cut and sewn together

one birth after another

I carry them all

in pieces

resistance

admission

come on over

but I have one name

my name

you only see the person you knew

think you knew

wanted to know

disfigured

I am not imagined

I never stood still

different directions held on to my body

and voices call me back

think they embody my home

graves in comfort zones

trying to pull me out of the present

return to the past that I burned by heart

reduce me to sheer unbearable functionality

step back into myself

I cannot wear my own dead skin

it lies folded and sacred

amongst its kind

within myself

out of your hands

get it out of your head

a memory is a memory for a reason

My own drawing © Laura Gentile 2021 | Instagram: @melpomenepaintings

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