pale blonde girl, stand still
pale blonde girl, swallow, girl, swallow, girl
take me in
hold me close
child, hold me, take me
absorb every part of me, I say
father of mine, father of mine
tongue around her features
saliva on my daughter, saliva on my face
eat me up, my father has an appetite
I put my tongue in my daughter’s face
carving father, holy father
takes it out, takes it out on her
women take it
daughters take it
learn it
wine down their throats
swallow
I learn my father’s language
bitterness
salt mine
father’s tongue
father tongue
I learn it quickly
I learn it without words
without womenspines
without resistance
take me in
crematoriumbed
kills my mother, kills her in her sleep
tongues don’t speak
tongues carve and mould
mouldfathers
wet and blue, father, blue and wet
mildewfaces, mildewtaste,
burying me alive with your mouth
I give myself birth again and again
hold me, child
I need to survive
I take what’s mine
I take what I created
I open my mouth wide
and nobody will hear you speak
you don’t know the words
you won’t understand
they won’t see, they won’t intervene
they grew up in it
they swallowed deeply
profoundly
part of their flesh
we embody the language of the dead
the mildewdead
perform, daughter, perform
I make myself a part of you
I collect you
contract you
all parts of you
taste me
and they won’t hold
they can’t stand
they can’t listen
truth doesn’t exist
they imagine a whole new world
they all drowned in the underground
dead weight, dead women floating facedown on the surface
mosswomen, stonechildren
he is dead when he speaks about what happened
I bury you, devour you in the swampcracks in-between the lines
you’d never think that I’d use my tongue as well
my d a u g h t e r t o n g u e
cathartic
Croque-Melpomene 