I drank all of your crocodile tears,
The ever-intoxicating essence of
Your self-pity that scarred my sense
Of empathy. I absorbed you without
Questioning, I painted all the red flags
White and loved you with a lack of resources.
I ran behind you, stumbled, you would
Never look back, not at me, anyhow,
How I gasped for air and patience, I couldn’t
Keep up and forced myself to become grown,
A child in a child’s body imitating adults,
Pretending to know it all, but I fell into that trap
Because I realised you didn’t know at all what had
Been best for me.
I did and I gave that knowledge away.
Just like that. Unconditional trust, trying to keep up,
Trying to stay close to you, as your hands loosened
Their grasp around mine and I saw it coming,
The negligence, the abandonment, from your skin
Sinking into mine, splintered, frozen and escalated,
I tripped and you escaped.