Losing Faith In The Warmth Of Your Body: A Poem

I stayed long enough to witness what you would

Do to her, to me, eventually. I needed to know for sure.

I needed to hit that spot of no return within myself.

Maybe you never knew better, but I can’t accept that as

An excuse for anything anymore.


You had no self-control. You lived in a different reality.

You never understood or believed the world you created

For me. You painted it pitch black, exitless, merciless, like

Yourself. I comprehended too late that the reality you

Laid out for me was a projection of yourself. I wouldn’t

Swallow that poison anymore.


Every movement of your body increased my fear of death.

Every word you spoke created crevice after crevice in

My self-esteem. I fell into my own self, losing everything,

You taught me to absorb everything, no questions asked,

For a reason, so you could do whatever you wanted.


I was your experiment to see how far you could go.

And I took it and took it, I thought, at the end of this

Nightmare might be a dream come true, love instead

Of hate, but you swallowed me alive, the massive

Gulp, remorselessly, without ever looking back in regret.

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