The cheeks move from one side to the other.
He preached security whilst
Feeding you a sense of powerlessness
And you were convinced that you could be
Robbed of everything.
I sit across from you and wait for action.
Your fist on the table.
Your scream of revolution.
The opening of your dreams
That he strangled to make room for himself.
The girl with the long locks and white socks
Has disappeared in your womanly body somewhere.
Fear had been knitted into her skin, her heartbeat.
And I look for her. I want her to rise against the violence.
The drunken war-dance raging against her.
She burst outside of the picture frame
And I cannot hold her.
She buried her life inside of her.
Her eyes never managed to be superficial.
I evoke her chamber in my head and think of her presence.
She wanted to leave, to escape, to finally sleep in peace.
In her own body it would never happen.
Her body consisted of ghosts, contained terrors from lost years.
She dreamed of her nonexistence and I fell apart.
I could never let her go in my own heart.
“Head of a Young Girl” by Jacob van Oost (1603-1671)
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My name is Laura Gentile. I’m of German-Italian descent and I speak five languages such as English, German, French, Italian, Luxembourgish and I’m currently learning Romanian.
I hold a Master of Arts Degree in English Literature, Film and Visual Culture (Dissertation: The Decadent in Love with his Psychopomp: Thomas Mann's 'Death in Venice' and Adrian Lyne's 'Lolita') and a Master of Letters by Research in English Literature, Film and Visual Culture (Thesis: Romanticising Decadence and Aestheticising Death: Women as Projection Bodies and Mimetic Identities in Zola’s 'Thérèse Raquin', Schnitzler’s 'Dream Story', Süskind’s 'Perfume: The Story of a Murderer' and Eugenides’ 'The Virgin Suicides').
My debut novel, 'Within Paravent Walls', will be published by WiDo Publishing / E. L. Marker.
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