She drained herself.
Staring into the hole
That absorbed her.
She was giving birth to
Death. To the prison
Within her; she released both.
She had grown tired of herself.
Of hearing her own voice.
She caught herself in self-betrayal.
Her feelings travelled to her mind
And everything would become fact.
If nothing happened, what does sadness mean?
She would never stop contemplating.
Comparing herself to absent people.
Setting standards and demeaning herself.
Always stuck and trying to break free.
She had lost orientation. A candle lit in a pit.
And she would talk about her sorrow, but
Could never put her finger on it.
Maybe she felt invisible.
Maybe even to herself. The most, perhaps.
Taken for granted.
They wouldn’t listen to her.
And she lost her attention span.
Concentrating on the devil’s details,
Not the whole picture.
She walked away.
Wandered around in her mind.
Knocked on all doors like a beggar,
A detective. She harmed herself
Without a single gesture.
Sometimes she wouldn’t say a word
So that there wouldn’t be a sign of her on earth.
She was looking for something.
It was too abstract, too unknown to tell.
The awareness of it would drive her insane.
Everything started to irritate her and she got caught.
She knew she was out of control.
She was the painting itself and had no distance.
“La schiava turca” by Parmigianino (1503-1540)
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My name is Laura Gentile. I’m of German-Italian descent and I speak five languages such as English, German, French, Italian, Luxembourgish and I’m currently learning Romanian.
I hold a Master of Arts Degree in English Literature, Film and Visual Culture (Dissertation: The Decadent in Love with his Psychopomp: Thomas Mann's 'Death in Venice' and Adrian Lyne's 'Lolita') and a Master of Letters by Research in English Literature, Film and Visual Culture (Thesis: Romanticising Decadence and Aestheticising Death: Women as Projection Bodies and Mimetic Identities in Zola’s 'Thérèse Raquin', Schnitzler’s 'Dream Story', Süskind’s 'Perfume: The Story of a Murderer' and Eugenides’ 'The Virgin Suicides').
My poetry and short stories have been published in two anthologies entitled 'Shaking Thoughts' and 'Until Forever Becomes The End', both edited by Joan Barbara Simon PhD PhD, leading to a prose and poetry recital called 'Silence Breakers' at the Libreria Altrimenti in Luxembourg.
My article on 'Biblical Imagery and Apocalyptic Visions in Films' written for the university course 'Film And Popular Culture' was published in a Luxembourgish film magazine named 'Graffiti'.
My work was chosen as obligatory reading for the academic course 'Creative Writing' at the University of Luxembourg and was the focus of the students’ exam portfolio. I was invited by the University of Luxembourg to do a workshop on my short story 'Prophets of the Streetlight' for the 'Creative Writing' course, including a reading and a Q&A.
In 2013, I published my own collection of short stories and poetry entitled 'Seraphic Addiction', which led to an invitation by Ara City Radio to do an interview and a reading on air.
Consequently I was encouraged to create my own radio show called 'Chasse-Sirène' surrounding literature, films, music and art.
Furthermore, I am the official German translator of Joan Barbara Simon’s 'Verses Nature' trilogy.
My debut novel, 'Within Paravent Walls', will be published by WiDo Publishing / E. L. Marker.
I am the creator of "Croque-Melpomene: Femalecentric Poetry" and I have a YouTube channel carrying the same name.
I am a weekly blogger for RTL Today, a major European media platform.
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