You enriched yourself, bathing in my fruitless vulnerability.
I touched you, embraced you, with a blind face, a heart as naive
As water travelling through a hole. I believed you were made of light.
I embellished you, justified you, to erase everyone else’s doubts and
Clairvoyance. Why did I knock myself out? Your heartlessness was blatant.
I walked through the city, amongst chaotic braids of people.
I smell your perfume. Her perfume. See common features.
The same old clothing. And my heart stops. My body thinks that
I’ll be attacked, that I need to protect myself, fight you off.
It’s never you, and always, in dysfunctional silhouettes, mouldy.
And I think, this is it, a decisive moment.
My mind can make everything worse.
And I want to take your face and scream and give
Everything back to you. You resurfacer. You want something from me.
And you never happen, not in the same form, I’ve taken myself out of the equation
A long time ago and all I’m dealing with are ashen memories.
“Portrait of a lady” by either Jean-Laurent Mosnier (1743-1808) or Louise Élisabeth Vigée Le Brun (1755-1842)
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My name is Laura Gentile. I’m of German-Italian descent and I speak five languages such as English, German, French, Italian, Luxembourgish and I’m currently learning Romanian.
I hold a Master of Arts Degree in English Literature, Film and Visual Culture (Dissertation: The Decadent in Love with his Psychopomp: Thomas Mann's 'Death in Venice' and Adrian Lyne's 'Lolita') and a Master of Letters by Research in English Literature, Film and Visual Culture (Thesis: Romanticising Decadence and Aestheticising Death: Women as Projection Bodies and Mimetic Identities in Zola’s 'Thérèse Raquin', Schnitzler’s 'Dream Story', Süskind’s 'Perfume: The Story of a Murderer' and Eugenides’ 'The Virgin Suicides').
My poetry and short stories have been published in two anthologies entitled 'Shaking Thoughts' and 'Until Forever Becomes The End', both edited by Joan Barbara Simon PhD PhD, leading to a prose and poetry recital called 'Silence Breakers' at the Libreria Altrimenti in Luxembourg.
My article on 'Biblical Imagery and Apocalyptic Visions in Films' written for the university course 'Film And Popular Culture' was published in a Luxembourgish film magazine named 'Graffiti'.
My work was chosen as obligatory reading for the academic course 'Creative Writing' at the University of Luxembourg and was the focus of the students’ exam portfolio. I was invited by the University of Luxembourg to do a workshop on my short story 'Prophets of the Streetlight' for the 'Creative Writing' course, including a reading and a Q&A.
In 2013, I published my own collection of short stories and poetry entitled 'Seraphic Addiction', which led to an invitation by Ara City Radio to do an interview and a reading on air.
Consequently I was encouraged to create my own radio show called 'Chasse-Sirène' surrounding literature, films, music and art.
Furthermore, I am the official German translator of Joan Barbara Simon’s 'Verses Nature' trilogy.
My debut novel, 'Within Paravent Walls', will be published by WiDo Publishing / E. L. Marker.
I am the creator of "Croque-Melpomene: Femalecentric Poetry" and I have a YouTube channel carrying the same name.
I am a weekly blogger for RTL Today, a major European media platform.
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