love was the last thing to cross your mind
-I don’t think it did at all-
you didn’t want it anywhere near you, love
I don’t deserve love, such a thing, to be close to me
love me, despite all the things my body contains
you didn’t think this love was right at all
it shouldn’t even exist, like you, possibly, like you
is that what you were thinking
is that what you couldn’t overcome
what disgusted you, what you rid yourself of
a body not to be loved, a soul, thereby, beyond repair
love, away from it all, from me, I’ll have none of it, here
you wouldn’t let love take the fall for this
you wouldn’t let love be a blemished thing
when is it not, when are we clean
you abandoned love on your way out
it never left your side
I can’t handle it
it doesn’t belong to me
show yourself to me
I know who you are
sit with it
there
the kind of love that doesn’t walk away
I think you forgot who you are
the world made you think that you deserved this
you integrated a death sentence into your body
why did you let them in
and not love
not us
Croque-Melpomene 